Being a mom is weird.
This past week my kids jumped back into the school routine. I don't know if you're like me, but routine changes are hard for me. I love being in control. I love plans and being early vs being late. I like having my shit together.
Routine changes, they remind me... I NEVER have my shit together.
This year, we have two boys riding the big bus to school each day which makes my morning routine much easier because I don't have to leave the house! But honestly, this year was harder for me, emotionally.
We've had a good summer. We've enjoyed time at home, went on adventures, they laughed and played & got along SO GOOD all summer (which makes it easier for momma to work.) This summer we genuinely got more time together. If you know me and my story, quality time is all I ever want. It was my goal with my business to create freedom for my family. So being able to have the flexibility and freedom to do what we wanted when we wanted; that was LIFE. I hate the idea of being tied down to the rules of someone else and how we spend our time. So I didn't want it to start back up yet.
When summer ended I truthfully was a little sad and a whole lot scared.
What will life look like with me and Little Flash here everyday by ourselves. Would I be able to work? Would he miss his brothers? Only time would tell. -- spoiler alert: one week in and we are getting into a good groove.
With my 1st grader it was the normal, first day of school picture, meet his teacher, get him on the bus and back to the grind. I felt so confident because coincidently his teacher was MY teacher when I was in first grade. Cool right? So I know she's awesome and he is in amazing hands. He's been to school before, he knows it. He's a first born -- so he's a leader, a rule follower.
My middle child, well with him we had to do all the K prep stuff & it kinda broke my heart a little. He's always been a daddy's boy. Never really "connected" to me, around me he's independent and strong willed. He's an emotional human. He wears his heart on his sleeve. He has food allergies. He gets his feelings hurt easy and sometimes doesn't know how to handle his feelings. So I was worried. How would this huge transition be for him? Would he take it ok? Would the school listen to his needs? I mean they have so much to focus on.
They started something new this year for K parents though. We did a half day orientation where we met his teacher, walked through the halls, ate lunch, just got familiar. We met her (even though strangely enough she's our neighbor! So again I know he's in great hands). But as she read through the rules and just talked about her classroom I couldn't help but get emotional. I could FEEL her passion behind her love for these kids she didn't even know yet.
She talked about how our kids comfort was first ALWAYS, no matter what.
And it just made me sit and feel.
This is a big step. Going to school.
I know we just brush it off like its life, its part of it, we cant wait to get our kids back. But if you sit and think this is a big freaking deal. This is them gaining their independence. Another year of their life gone to growing and becoming their own person.
Their teachers, they are the some of the most influential people in their lives. We are trusting them with the most precious thing to us. This classroom will help mold them into who they one day will become. & its a beautiful, bittersweet thing.
Its beautiful to watch them learn new things; change, earn freedom and responsibility. Its awesome seeing them get bigger and find their voice and personality.
Its sad to see your baby grow. To see them become their own person. To deal with life and responsibility.
We always worry, are we doing enough? Are we guiding them right? Am I even good at this whole mom thing or am I totally effing it up?!? But just worrying about it means I can recognize my actions, my feelings and I get to decide everyday what kind of mom I show up as.
You see life is us just trying to do the best we can daily. Learning on our own, figuring out how to deal with those around us, including our kids; we are doing the best we can with what we have. **Thank you Mel Robbins for that life changing insight**
This transition is just the next one in our ever changing life. I'm embracing it, feeling it and celebrating it.
This past week my kids jumped back into the school routine. I don't know if you're like me, but routine changes are hard for me. I love being in control. I love plans and being early vs being late. I like having my shit together.
Routine changes, they remind me... I NEVER have my shit together.
This year, we have two boys riding the big bus to school each day which makes my morning routine much easier because I don't have to leave the house! But honestly, this year was harder for me, emotionally.
We've had a good summer. We've enjoyed time at home, went on adventures, they laughed and played & got along SO GOOD all summer (which makes it easier for momma to work.) This summer we genuinely got more time together. If you know me and my story, quality time is all I ever want. It was my goal with my business to create freedom for my family. So being able to have the flexibility and freedom to do what we wanted when we wanted; that was LIFE. I hate the idea of being tied down to the rules of someone else and how we spend our time. So I didn't want it to start back up yet.
When summer ended I truthfully was a little sad and a whole lot scared.
What will life look like with me and Little Flash here everyday by ourselves. Would I be able to work? Would he miss his brothers? Only time would tell. -- spoiler alert: one week in and we are getting into a good groove.
With my 1st grader it was the normal, first day of school picture, meet his teacher, get him on the bus and back to the grind. I felt so confident because coincidently his teacher was MY teacher when I was in first grade. Cool right? So I know she's awesome and he is in amazing hands. He's been to school before, he knows it. He's a first born -- so he's a leader, a rule follower.
My middle child, well with him we had to do all the K prep stuff & it kinda broke my heart a little. He's always been a daddy's boy. Never really "connected" to me, around me he's independent and strong willed. He's an emotional human. He wears his heart on his sleeve. He has food allergies. He gets his feelings hurt easy and sometimes doesn't know how to handle his feelings. So I was worried. How would this huge transition be for him? Would he take it ok? Would the school listen to his needs? I mean they have so much to focus on.
They started something new this year for K parents though. We did a half day orientation where we met his teacher, walked through the halls, ate lunch, just got familiar. We met her (even though strangely enough she's our neighbor! So again I know he's in great hands). But as she read through the rules and just talked about her classroom I couldn't help but get emotional. I could FEEL her passion behind her love for these kids she didn't even know yet.
She talked about how our kids comfort was first ALWAYS, no matter what.
And it just made me sit and feel.
This is a big step. Going to school.
I know we just brush it off like its life, its part of it, we cant wait to get our kids back. But if you sit and think this is a big freaking deal. This is them gaining their independence. Another year of their life gone to growing and becoming their own person.
Their teachers, they are the some of the most influential people in their lives. We are trusting them with the most precious thing to us. This classroom will help mold them into who they one day will become. & its a beautiful, bittersweet thing.
Its beautiful to watch them learn new things; change, earn freedom and responsibility. Its awesome seeing them get bigger and find their voice and personality.
Its sad to see your baby grow. To see them become their own person. To deal with life and responsibility.
We always worry, are we doing enough? Are we guiding them right? Am I even good at this whole mom thing or am I totally effing it up?!? But just worrying about it means I can recognize my actions, my feelings and I get to decide everyday what kind of mom I show up as.
You see life is us just trying to do the best we can daily. Learning on our own, figuring out how to deal with those around us, including our kids; we are doing the best we can with what we have. **Thank you Mel Robbins for that life changing insight**
This transition is just the next one in our ever changing life. I'm embracing it, feeling it and celebrating it.
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